Saw Benachachan today.
After four years.
Emm..i saw his photo, he is in US. I can't explain the thrill I felt when I saw his photo. Wow, I love him.
If there is anyone I would love to become, it's Him.
He teaches me one of the greatest lessons in life: live life simple; with what you have; happily.
You don't need anything extraordinary in you to be great.
I admire him!
"You cannot win until you play", the status msg of one of my friends says. So true. It reminds me of my engineering life.
Went to church. Found so many friends. Felt love and affection.
But I missed you. Only you were not to be found!
My plight is very bad.
Don't feel alright.
Thank God!
My internet connection is finally ready.
By the way, I am now in Trivandrum(Thironthoram, as they say here). Most of my time here is spent analysing how different this place has become ever since I left. One of my observations is that everyone here has grown very old! That woman at the milk shop(no, she couldn't recognise me), that neighbour of ours, all seem to have grown prematurely old! The only person whom I know, who didn't seem older was the man at the internet cafe (he too didn't recognise me).
We live very near to our previous residence, and our house is very close to the Cliff House. But couldn't sight any of those ministers or Mr. Achumama himself.
Speaking of Trivandrum City: God! After driving in Ernakulam, I find that driving here is cakewalk. (In between my drive from Ekm to Tvm was great. I never knew that driving at night is heaven! Also the road was very much full of "signs", so I enjoyed it very much). It so less crowded and of course, more disciplined. But a parallel you can draw between motorists here and there is that: both overtake through the left! I thought it was a feature of Ekm but now I feel it's very ordinary in India. The people here are much more "friendly", unlike those in Ekm, where you can find only strangers. Speaking about roads, oh no, it's damn confusing. One-ways, Fly-overs and what not. Only today I realised that two places I had thought to be kilometres away are just near to each other! Only thing is that there is a flyover and two one ways so that they make it all very complex for you. In short, I still don't know the routes here.
Otherwise, this place is very calm. The roads outside the city seem like those of my native place: very serene. In the city, everwhere you can see Police either expecting a Dharna or picketing, or waiting for some VIP to pass.
What else, learning to live in this new place. There are a lot of people I know in this place, but I haven't come across anyone who could recognise me. Waiting to be in our Church. Maybe I can find someone there. And of course, my School! After seven years. I need to be there soon!
My new residence is at:
T.C. 11/1272(4)
Challirikkal House
YMR 31, Nanthancode
Trivandrum
5A, JM Crescent
P. J. Antony Road
Mamangalam
Cochin-24
Ho!!
Good bye, Ernakulam.
Today evening we will start off to Trivandrum. Packing yet to start. Dad is ill. I too not feeling well. Got to drive.
You gave me so much. Thank you very much. Some day I will return.
New place, new hopes, a new beginning.
Even otherwise, I was thinking of starting afresh. Nothing's working for me. Let's see what happens in the new place.
I am returning to Trivandrum after 7 years. In these years I've been there only thrice. My last visit was 4 years back. Don't know how that place looks like now, or whether I remember anyone there.
I am unplugging my modem. Don't know whether I would have broad band there. Don't know when I will be able to blog again.
Bye.
The journey begins.
Today was the final day in class of my Engineering. The four main events were the last class, a few record works, the last gathering and a visit to Priya's home.
Got my record completed and signed. Amidst that were other activities pertaining to nominations for various stars of the class. It was fun.
The last hour of my engineering life was DSD. It's not my elective, so I asked Miss's permission and got in. The events inside the classroom were not at all memorable for an outgoing batch. But it didnot bother me, it's not my elective. I discovered that I was sitting in the class in which I came to four years back. And before long I got myself sitting in the same seat I had sat in the first year. And to relive the life that I had lived here, I even felt sleepy as the class was going on. It was all over soon.
Then we had a gathering, Thirasheela '08. The various winners were awarded with "munches". The results were something like this: Best Movie- Samasya, Best Villian-Sooraj, Best Couple: Kalavi-Neetha, Best Brother-Sister: Sujeesh-Lakshmi, Best Poovaniyaatha Pranayam: Kottu-Sikha(it was really funny), Best single: Priya, Best SriKrishnan: Sumesh, Best Nickname: Ammavan and so on.. (I don't remember the rest).
I too got some nominations... Best villian, Best single and...Best poovaniyatha pranayam. Got second in Best Single. Kashtam, oru "line"o undaayilla, ennal best single aayo athumilla, avideyum second-best :( .
I didn't find it all very interesting but I knew it was one of the last few gatherings as a class. There was "senti" speech by Sooraj, compromise speech by Nikhil, all so predictable; nice outwards and insincere inside...they want compromise and peace when everything has ended, they didn't want it as long as the course was on. All their gang was highlighted. As it happens usually in our class, those who wanted to shine, shone.
Then we went to Priya's house. It was around 6:30 when we were out.
And then the journey back to Ekm. Perhaps my last Thrissur-Ekm drive. How many times have I drove between these two places? Don't know. Maybe some 30 times. The road between is not the best, but the most familiar(sometimes you love the more familiar than the better one). I knew this route so well, I maynot have another exclusive drive between these two cities, or if I do, the road may be a four-lane one by the time.
The classes are over. Something has been lost. More about my class soon.
How much more should I got through this?
How longer should I wait to be away?
Sincerely I don't deserve anymore to be here,
And I can't take anymore of it.
Just wish I were in some place where no one knew me.
It hurts a lot.
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Let go roshan, Let go.
forget everything of the past, good or bad.
Live in the present.
Everything that troubles you has gone its way.
Why do you alone want to stay?
Let go Roshan, let go. Don't stay back. Move on. Life's waiting.
It's hurting, I know, but it won't get better if you stay back. Move on.
I don't know why, but you disturb me very effectively.
My intuitions, the gut feeling...they are shockingly true.
There's a lot (really a lot) to write but I won't...it's better it's not written.
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Dad's birthday today, and he hasn't arrived home yet(He's now somewhere near Tiruvalla, on his way from Tvm). In the worst case we will cut the cake at 12 midnight, 4th may. He's 52 today. I adore him. He has done the best he can do, in these 52 years, considering where he began from. Actually he puts me to shame, when I discover how intelligent and hardworking he is.
I have had enough XP installs this week, so that now I longer dread it. Bought a Bluetooth dongle, Guess why? Roshan, now featuring 2 MP :) . I am pretty much excited, more of it later.
It has started to ache my heart from somewhere. Know there is nothing to lose, but this damn sentiments...College life is over. Happy that there is nothing to miss, Sad that there was nothing to miss. No, I don't feel that my college life is over even after the farewell has got over(and the Farewell is worth a post, but I won't.I said na, it's better that it's all not written). The fact that I can go to class for only 4 more days....... is burning my heart. Onnumilathe Enthino Vendi...Badly want to go back and live the life that I actually wanted to.
Priya couldn't clear IIM-B. In the beginning I envied and hated this girl. But now I really respect her. Very bad that she couldn't make it. She deserved it. Feel sorry for her, given her hard work and promptness.
I downloaded the vodafone-ready to help ad, and did some serious work on it. Now it's mp3 and I have it on my mobile(BT dongle :) ) I am crazy with the music, I have listened to it some 100 times now...just that single one, repeatedly and repeatedly.
Going to pick Dad, from Railway St.
Roshan will be back, no matter how late, to complete this post.
Roshan, signs out at 10:13pm.
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Roshan, signs in again at 12.29am, May 4
Dad's cake cut fortunately yesterday itself.
As for other other affairs which I was to blog: operation terminated by user. Lost the mood.