Written on 3/23/2008 10:50:00 pm by Swift!
Something surprising happened..
I found my name in the list of someone's "least important/most influencing" people's list(wonder which category I belong to).
The funny part is that the most striking feature found in me is that I am the most irritating person that that person has ever found!!I feel like laughing.Never heard such an opinion about me before.The even funnier aspect is that if anyone asks me who is the most irritaing person in my class, I would name this guy.Strange...perhaps we irritate each other, so that each feels this about the other.
Other features are that I am not an understanding person...(My fans...come on to my rescue and defend me.)How do you know??You never know.And won't know whether I can understand or not.
I am a good listener...me?huh!! I never knew!
I am a man of feelings,that's right...I love to feel and to be felt.What's life without feelings.
I am a perfectionist...now that's not a secret;good observation anyhow.
Had a gr8 drive today.Very tired.Nothing special for easter.
Suddenly a new desire..
I feel like being a great musician and being lost in some absorbing piece.
Good night.Gotta wake up early morning.
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Written on 3/21/2008 11:02:00 pm by Swift!
It's a new beginning. I thank you for being there for me.For reminding me many things.When many whom I thought will help me let me down, you helped me.You could have passed unnoticed.No one would have asked you why. But you spent your time and money for me.And believed in my dream more than I did.
Thank you.I will!
Even if I don't, I know that you are there to help me. Believe me I will return all that you do for me. Its a promise.
It's time to fly.Let's fly.
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Written on 3/20/2008 11:22:00 pm by Swift!
Congrats Roshan.
Congrats on your achievement.Nowadays no one congratulates you.So I am congratulating you.Who else would.Its indeed an achievement.You need to be appreciated.
Everyone notices highs.So they acknowledge it when you fly.
But no one sees lows.No one accepts lows.No one knows that its as hard to achieve failure as it is to achieve success.
You toiled for years to reach here.It wasn't the achievement of a single day.You are great!
When you feel there are a lot of people ahead of you just look back.You can see more people behind you.Be complacent that you are ahead of so many.
I am proud that you are foolish than most people.The only ones more foolish are the ones who believe in you.
You betray anyone who trusts you and put to shame all who thought that there is anything in you.Well done.They deserve more.
Roshan,don't be complacent.If there is further down, then don't stop before that.
Congrats!61% can't be achieved that easily.You did it.
I pity you!
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Written on 3/15/2008 10:23:00 pm by Swift!
why did I log in?
I don't have anything to write.
But then I can neither keep silent. It has been too much of it.
Wish I could just show what I am to those who laugh at me. Once. Just once.
Wish I could jsut blow up that man who 'gripped' your hand yesterday. I hadn't noticed him doing that or I would have done something. Or would I have done anything? No, maybe I wouldn't; I couldn't.
Can't distinguish what is real and what is fake. Its long since I stopped believing myself.
Is anything going to happen in the remaining two months in this college? Anything that hasn't for the past three-and-a-half years? Any single thing/individual that can make me feel that there was some meaning in being here?
Perhaps that is just a dream, just a hope. The lie which I believed all these years. That someone/something will bring meaning to my life.
the music to which I am listening now sings:
'coz I am counting on a
new beginning
a reason for living
a deeper meaning
Yeahh!!
And everything is not that bad either. Lost many battles but won a war.Where could I find You if I hadn't be here. You are wonderful. Really. Love you!
"If something that you bought doesn't work properly and to fix it it costs more than what you bought it for,what would you do?
Buy a new one!!
This is my new philolosophy about broken relationships", said I to Venkat yesterday.
Actually I wasn't serious when I said it, I was kidding, but later I felt that there is some sense in it.
But the truth is that in relationships even an identically new one can never replace the old one.
I am expecting a life-taking blow in a couple of days. Maybe change is here.
What else? Think I will drop in more frequently.
Good night Rosh!
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Written on 3/09/2008 11:23:00 pm by Swift!
Yesterday my friends came to my home. It was a memorable day. I was very happy.
Are things improving or am I being fooled once again. I would prefer to be sceptic and doubt the developments around me.
Nothing worth mentioning happening.
I will miss you, you are a great friend, really.
Arun Sir, thank you very much for everything.
Thats all for now
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Written on 3/06/2008 06:35:00 am by Swift!
Its some time since I have been this way.actually nothing's happening, that's why. just living the last few months in this college. there maybe barely two months more here as a 'class'.not sure on which side of timeframe i want to be. here or the other side, when i am out of here.
exams over,no comments.classes just started.
went naatil yesterday, drivingful day.
arun sir called me day before...emmmmm...a lot of pending works! he reminded me that i am not on my track; waqt bahut kum hai...a lot has to be done and a little time ahead. the only good thing with my past few days is that i think of my dream now and then, which is a good thing. and thanks to arun sir!!
thinking of writing a couple of stories, don't know when it will materialise.
Dad joined Palakkad, don't know when we will be leaving here. I don't know why destiny is so cruel to me. Its the second time I have to leave Ekm at a time when I just don't want to leave. At a time when this place gave me new happiness, new hopes...I just love to be here, leaving here will again leave me alone, again in that lonely island. and that too for a second time. I got so much from this place, at the first time it was expected, this time it ws unexpected. maybe I will have to wait much more to be here. Maybe I will come back.
Anyhow I love this place. Maybe no one else will do, with all the mosquitoes and the mad rush, but I love this place...for its traffic jams, for its chaos...for its hidden face....its a place i can get lost without being noticed.
And I love you too.
Guitar may get well, but the hospital bill may ruin me.
Project and some serious studies ahead.
And in between am I bad?? May be but I don't care, as long as there are people who can understand me in all my badness.
Ohh it has been too much, I am stopping.
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