extempore
Written on 3/15/2008 10:23:00 pm by Swift!
why did I log in?
I don't have anything to write.
But then I can neither keep silent. It has been too much of it.
Wish I could just show what I am to those who laugh at me. Once. Just once.
Wish I could jsut blow up that man who 'gripped' your hand yesterday. I hadn't noticed him doing that or I would have done something. Or would I have done anything? No, maybe I wouldn't; I couldn't.
Can't distinguish what is real and what is fake. Its long since I stopped believing myself.
Is anything going to happen in the remaining two months in this college? Anything that hasn't for the past three-and-a-half years? Any single thing/individual that can make me feel that there was some meaning in being here?
Perhaps that is just a dream, just a hope. The lie which I believed all these years. That someone/something will bring meaning to my life.
the music to which I am listening now sings:
'coz I am counting on a
new beginning
a reason for living
a deeper meaning
Yeahh!!
And everything is not that bad either. Lost many battles but won a war.Where could I find You if I hadn't be here. You are wonderful. Really. Love you!
"If something that you bought doesn't work properly and to fix it it costs more than what you bought it for,what would you do?
Buy a new one!!
This is my new philolosophy about broken relationships", said I to Venkat yesterday.
Actually I wasn't serious when I said it, I was kidding, but later I felt that there is some sense in it.
But the truth is that in relationships even an identically new one can never replace the old one.
I am expecting a life-taking blow in a couple of days. Maybe change is here.
What else? Think I will drop in more frequently.
Good night Rosh!
